I Know Why The Caged Bird Sings!

I should be happy that today is Friday, and I am, but today is just one of them dayz! My eyez are swollen and my nose is stuffy. My sinus problems are flaring up!

I had a down day yesterday, memories and the pain from them had me feeling low.

I think too much! I worry too much! I care way too much!

The devil is disgusted with my joy so he reminded me of my pain and my inner most sorrows. But I will not succumb to the pressure. He won't steal my joy.


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At nite I work at drug and alcohol rehabilitation treatment center. Imagine everyday being bombarded with everyone else's troubles, heartaches, joys and pains. I have my students that I deal with also. They depend on me for all the things they feel they don't get from home. Imagine everyday of your life, that your emotions shift up and down because people confide in you and trust you with their inner most pain. Imagine that when you are at your lowest point, you still must shine and smile and be a confidant, a friend, a counselor, a mother to the motherless, a sister to the sisterless, and the closest thing some people will ever get to a bible.

I love my jobs and I love people. And for some reason they love me. They see the beauty in me that I sometimes can't see. But it gets hard sometimes because my mind deals with so much and it can get overwhelming. I know that this is what God has for me to do, because it comes with ease, sometimes without thought. I place my feelings and troubles aside for over a hundred kids a day and at least two hundred clients at nite! Dealing with what I deal with is not something everyone can do, and I thank God for his presence in my life. Without him I would melt down.

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LIGHT BULB MOMENT!!!!!
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I just realized that all those things that I went through, I had to go through, to be able to reach others and understand their pain. You don't know a person's struggle, until you have walked in their shoes. When I went through the phases of my life I thought that they would never end and I couldn't see my purpose on earth. I felt low and unwanted, I felt like a failure! I didn't see the difference or the impact that I would make. But it all make sense now!

I gotta pray now so that I can let go of the shame and the hurt that I carry in my heart! Gotta give God the praise and glory and ask for more understanding of my purpose!

I feel like the caged bird. I understand the song it sings! I understand it's struggle and I feel it's JOY!

Listening to Alicia Keys: Songs in A Minor
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Happy Birthday Dr. King. Thank God for you and your purpose and the difference you made in the World. Thank you God for all the people who fought for our struggles and for those who continue the fight today!

Be safe and enjoy this holiday weekend!!!
One Love!!