I'm back after a little time to think and ponder on my life situations. Right now I don't know what's going to happen due to the situation with my foot but as always I'm faithful in trusting the Lord. I know that things will somehow work out but I just don't know how, just yet.
I hate not knowing, but that is where faith comes in. I feel as if I'm going through certain situations for me to be able to appreciate the good in my life and that to come. Sometimes I wonder why I'm struggling, when all I ever do was be nice, understanding and true to everyone around me.

Maybe I took things for granted or maybe things came to easy. Maybe my eyes had be opened and my heart enlightened to the real world around me. But to say the least, even though these times have not been easy I'm glad that they happened because I would not be the person that I am today without enduring these struggles.

I'm praying for continued patience and understanding, because I know that this is just the begining. God has to have strong workers in his court and he has to know that I am able to handle rough times and stay faithful and trustworthy. Times like this remind me of one my favorite gospel songs... "This Battle is not Yours, It's the Lords".

Thanks for coming through and be blessed!

Gas prices..."Out of Control" and "American Idol" is on a roll

I recieved an email that requested that anyone with cars refrain from purchasing gas on Wednesday, May 19 due to the inflation in prices. I support this and if you agree spread the word to all that you know!

Today was very productive and I have a mission to get some important things accomplished. With the motivation I recieve from TeEricka there is no way that I will fail. She is a friend that I definitely need and love to have in my life. I'm a laid back type of person...sometimes to laid back.

Okay so my new hubbie Dwayne Wade is playing right now and I can feel the "HEAT" down in my soul! I'm ready to celebrate another win and the 4th quater with 8:20 left. I let you know the results in my next update. Oh yeah, AMERICAN IDOL is now down to three and Fantasia had a outstanding and moving night. That girl can blow! Things are down to the wire or should I say "vote". I placed my vote...what about you?

I love my friends near and far! No matter what, I know that I can depend on my dearest friends Dasi, Tam and Tee. You would think that we all lived in the same city the way we keep in touch. Thank God for free nights and weekends and unlimited long distance.

I have to concentrate on the last few minutes of this game so I will continue another day.
May blessings touch all the read my page. Thanks for stopping by!

Your girl,
Lady T

Just Thoughts

Welcome home TeEricka!

I had the chance to finally show my girl Tee a nice little spot where I like to get away and unwind. At first, I was really nervous that she wouldn't like the place because we have totally different taste in what we call fun. Every thing turned out well and we really enjoyed our time together and I even got a chance to show her the little skills I picked up in playing pool. My opponent (a male with more skills) had four balls left on the table but I scratched on my eightball and lost the game. The look on the guys' face, when I was kicking his butt, was enough for me and I didn't need the win.
I had a really nice time and enjoyed being out on the town with my friend for the first time in years. And she better know that I love her cause I went out wearing my "Big Black Boot" that protects my broken foot.

Okay so my Miami Heat failed to win on the road again, but I haven't lost faith. They have another chance to prove themselves in a must win game. I still have faith in you guys so don't let me down.

Overall, things are going okay and I'm in search for a summer gig because school will be out in two weeks and there is no summer school. So I have to make some quick moves, so bills won't get to far behind.
My options are limited due to my foot but I'm not going to let it stop me. I really need a night job because I have to go to therapy during the day and I don't think a day job will allow me to be out that often. So I will continue to pray and let God have his way, because I know that he will make a way.

So continue to be blessed and thanks for stopping by!

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DA BAND is OVER ...

This cannot be true. This is hard news for a real fan as myself. All my hard work of watching them from the very begining, being sure not to miss an episode and buying the Cd, pumping the music from my car speakers. This is pain. Tears were in my eyes as I watched Sean "STUFFY" Combs tell them(us) it was over. He was trully thinking of only himself when he came up with this decision. He used us with this show, spreading false dreams and hopes to us as fans. See he has warned us before but we did take heed when he rapped "It's All About The Benjamins Baby". He used us like a twisted mate, who screwed us with a old condom and then it broke. We got laid but he got Paid!!

Maybe no one feels me but I surround myself with music! I buy Cd's every Tuesday (when the funds are sufficient) and I'm pro artist, meaning you will rarely find me with a bootleg copy of a Cd. And this is the thanks I get. Be for real, they could have a least given us a second album, and allow us decide if we are to continue to support. But they took that away and made Da Band a one hit record wonder.

"THAT SUCKS"!!!!

Okay so now I have to deal with Da Band being dismantled and with LaToya London being voted off American Idol.

DAMN!! DAMN!! DAMN!!

And they say our votes count...I voted for the first time on American Idol and my vote didn't count (none of them). So why should I think that it will count in a Presidential Election especially living in Florida where they make the vote for you.

I'm a little pissed off with this reality shows right now but at least I still have my Heat! Other than having my daughter with me, the Heat is the reason I have been waking up with a smile. jk

I'm just trippin right now but all in love and fun. I'll stop back by later but for now I have to get to bed, gotta get rest for work.
So be easy until the next update.

Lady T

That's "MY FRIEND"!!!

I get to brag all week long and forever more about "MY FRIEND" Miss T!
Yes my girl TeEricka got her first article in the infamous Miami Times. A local independent paper ran in Miami Dade county. Instead of me telling you all about it I think you should check it out yourself. She has it posted on her blog and I have a direct link from my page, so click on Share My World and experience an article of a life time.
Tee words alone can't express how happy I am for you. Thanks for being a wonderful friend and inspiration. May God continue you to bless you and your career!

So back to my little life!

I haven't expressed much about what I have been feeling inside about my boyfriend on my blog because of my own personal reasons. What I will share is that... I decided that I will no longer struggle with what I have been holding inside.

See my boyfriend, so far, is everything that i have been looking for in a man and that make me think of that old saying "to good to be true". I'm not used to a man that works so much. I am lucky if he gets one day off a week and then sometimes he still goes in. And he works double shifts. Basically I just have to much time on my hands and he doesn't have enough. I can't verify the times in which he gets off in the late hours because we don't live together or that near. So "I MUST TRUST"!!! Trusting is hard for me to do. I am the nice girl that gives her all to everyone around believing that everyone deserves a chance to be trusted. Well I'm tired of being walked over and used. So now with my new outlook on things and trust, my boyfiend has to earn before its given! I feel bad that I'm doing this because like I said he has done nothing to deserve this. He knows that things bother me but he really doesn't know what.

I struggle with this personally because I need to grow. I don't want what I'm feeling in the inside to affect our relationship because I trully enjoy having him in my life. I'm just spoiled and want more time. So my prayer is that God move in my life and in my heart and heal me from this insecurity.

If anyone can relate and can share, please drop a note, I'm open to suggestions!

Hey the Heat game is on right now and American Idol! So I must return to my favorite spot... on the couch in front of the television!

One Love and Let's Go Heat!! let's go Dywane Wade!!

GO HEAT!!

WOW!

Is the only word that can describe Dwyane Wade! My ROOKIE of the YEAR!
Isn't he the greatest and the most handsome young man! I think I have found my new "HUBBY", but don't tell my boyfriend. The Heat truly made me a happy woman and very proud to be a fan! No matter what though, they will always be my team. Im not a band-wagon fan, Im "true" all season long, year after year! So good luck fellas and much love from your #1 fan!

LET'S GOT HEAT!! LET'S GO HEAT!! LET'S GO HEAT!! LET'S GO HEAT!!

My mother is home and so is my little one, who came back sick! My poor babys' tummy was hurting and she has a burning fever. So of course I missed a day of work to stay home and be a good mother. She is the sweetest thing when she is sick or sleeping. To bad she isn't this calm all the time! Hopefully I can return to work in the morning, so I'll keep my fingers crossed!

Since the New Year has started, I have really been able to relax. For some reason it wasn't my time to graduate. I started internship about three weeks late, then two weeks into my internship I broke my foot. And trully I was on the edge of a burn-out. I worked full time, tutored part time and went to school full time. And to top that off I still had to struggle and be a full time, single mom. I can also say that I was a full time friend! I did everything I was asked of as a friend and was there no matter what.

I think being a friend is one of my best qualities and from a recent girls night out I realized that even though I may not talk to or see my friends every week, my friendship does not go unnoticed. It was one little comment made that night, that made me realize that! I love my friends hard, more like they are my family. My prayer is that everyone can encounter friends like I have and be blessed. And that they too can be a good friend in return.

Thank you God for blessing me with my heart of caring and kindness. And even though friendships get rough and are tested, you have not let my heart be troubled or changed. At times I wished that I wasn't this way but I allowed to move in my life and you took care of my problems.
I am forever grateful and humble.
Your child,
Lady T

Until I grace this place again, be easy and leave me a note to let me know that you have been by.
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Thoughts...

So it's the day after Mother's Day and I home chillin about to do some last minute shopping trying to find my mother a gift. She took a trip so it gave me a little more time to get some money and find a special treat.
My day was another blessed day of resting. I went nowhere, I sat home and recieved calls from my faithful friends wishing me a happy day. Thank God for friends and a few family members, and I mean a few. Its funny that my friends are there for me more than my own family. But I'm used to it.
I treated myself to "Captain Crabs"!!! Fried conch and parsley potatoes, large lemonade and a slice of strawberry cheesecake. A dinner fit for a loving, lonely mother. I ate everything but the cheesecake. I ate so much I couldn't even move and that's just how I wanted it. Since I didn't have anywhere to go or no one to hang with I needed an excuse, so I stuffed myself so even if I did want to go somewhere I couldn't. It worked! My day was complete and over. Now I can look to next year expecting it will be better. But don't get me wrong I enjoyed my peace but since my foot has been broke I'm pretty rested so I wouldn't have mind a busy but fun day.

Am I turning into a computer freak/couch potatoe. I'm taking steps now but I still choose not to go many places. I only like being places where it's not to many people and place where I can be relaxed. Everywhere I go people are staring or asking to many questions. I don't need the stress! I am content being home watching televison, reading a book, or watching the same cartoons over and over with my daughter. She needs a friend! Since there is no other sibling to play with her that means I'm her best friend. So I'm back playing with dolls and trying to untangle a mess of doll hair which she calls a braid. Every time I hide a comb she finds another one and lets not even talk about hair products, hair gel and oil sheen every where. Calgon, take me away!!

So the Miami Heat has lost two games and they have another playoff game tonight. They need to pull a win off so they can stay in the race. Its a long shot because they are playing a really good team but anything can happen in the world of sports. So to all you basketball fans...

LET'S GO HEAT!! LET'S GO HEAT!! LET'S GO HEAT!! LET'S GO HEAT!!

So until I grace this place again,
BE EASY

It's been to long...

I'm finally back!
My computer went a-wall on me for the past few days and I thought I was gonna loose my mind. Well I don't even know where to start. So here goes!

My mom is out of town and for my mother's day gift she took my daughter with her. PARTY OVER HERE!
Everything is all good with me and my BF. We spent the entire day together just talking and watching dvd's. These are the times that I treasure the most because I get be close and personal. Times like this, is when we grow closer and learn more about each other. I have a hard time trusting anyone right now, so it takes away from the relationship. I've been in and saw a lot on the relationship tip and I don't want or need to fall victim again. I like being in my safety zone. So I can enjoy being a girlfriend but still less affected if it doesn't work!

My cousin Bam is home for the summer and she has been a great help to me. She drives me around and makes sure that I have everything I need to make it through my day! It's been fun having her around because it's more like having a little sister around whose all grown up. Thanks for being here Bam!

Mother's Day is a few a hours away and its another year of knowing that I'm not appreciated by my little one's pappy. My mom does what she can to make me feel okay but it's not the same, but very much appreciated. Will I ever get past this feeling haunt me for many years to come? Plans for Mother's Day, zero! Just another day and my baby aint home. So a lonely Mother's Day for me. I don't expect much from my BF because I don't have a kid from him and right now he has no fatherly roles in my daughter's life. He has made comments, like I have something to look forward to but I don't expect more than a card. We can't go out because he has to work. I guess I'll let you know what happens.

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY to all mothers reading this and I pray that you will be blessed through your child and that you live to see many more!
One love!
Lady Thickness

I made it...

Today was my first day back to work in weeks and I made it!
You know, some people irritate me with their stupid questions. "Is your foot still messed up?" If you see a person with a Big Black Boot on the foot that they broke, then obviously, there is something still wrong, because that Big Black Boot isn't the norm. Why can't people simply wish me well and leave me the Hell alone. I'm sick and tired of answering the same questions over and over again. If I don't offer the information, then don't ask. And the dumbest question of all is "When is it going to get better?" And my reply is (with my eyes rollin)..."When God is ready and he heals it!" Please people no more questions cause once my foot is healed I won't have a voice to talk. I already have to deal everyday I don't need the added reminders. Show compassion and leave me alone.

After work I headed straight for the daycare and picked up lil'Thickness! And after a long day of keeping my cool, my own baby almost made me loose it all in thirty minutes. See it's raining and thundering real bad so that means quiet time while God does his work. But nnnooo, this little monster doesn't understand and catches a fit when she can't go out and play. And to top it off she elbowed me in my broke foot. Just the thought of this lil girl makes my head hurt but I still love her.

Well I'm so sleepy right now, I know I want have any problems sleeping tonight. I'm doing everything to keep myself from falling asleep. If I can last until nine that will be great. Maybe I can catch up with my BF later tonight. That will be a great reason to stay up.
I'll let you know how that goes! So until my heart graces the page, Be Easy!
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Once again it's on...

I'm back! Well today was another Sunday in the house maxin and relaxin. My BF had to work today, so there goes another weekend without my boo. He's a work-a-holic and I won't complain. We are both in positions where we are trying to reach personal goals. Once we get to where want to be on a personal level then we can and will be better partners to each other.

It's back to work for me! Since I broke my foot, I have limited ability to be up and about on my feet. I work with kids so I have to be able to move and keep up with my students. So I took a break and I have been surviving off my savings. But with all the doctor visits and bills, the money went double time. It hurts but a woman has to do what a woman has to do. So no more late nights with my computer and no more sleeping during the day. The thought alone brings tears to my eyes.

DAMN! DAMN! DAMN!

Okay so I need to go to bed early so I will stare at this computer until my eyes hurts. I'll do a few jigsaw puzzles to add to the pain. So stayed tuned because I should have a great story about my first day back to work. But here's something to think on....I'm already taking Friday off!
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WHAAATTT!!!! OKAAYYY!!!

Yeah it's three in the morning and I'm writing on this blog but what can I say... It's addictive. Of course its all TeEricka's fault cause she is the one that has me up this time of morning tweeking my page. But it's all good.

Today actually turned out well. I didn't eat a large portion of baked beans and enjoyed spending time with my crazy family. Dasi is from Orlando and she came down for a quick visit. I get to spend time with GodDaughter when Dasi comes home. SO, you would think that Big Red would give us some privacy and let us get some girl talk in over a chilled green apple Smirnoff and some late night cable. But no, that chick won't budge hogging the couch and man handling the remote. It's all good though I'll get her back, I know just how to get under her skin.

lil'Thickness got me tonight too. I went in her room to check on her and she done pissed in the bed and she had the nerve to be wrapped in my favorite and only decent quilt. Now I gotta suffer a restless night without my blanky. Now aint that a flip. So, until I recover from this night...be easy!
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The day I was supposed to graduate...

Well here I am looking at this computer screen when I should be at Florida Memorial's graduation. And when I thought my day would be okay my BF calls and says that he won't be over till later becuase he is going to support his Frat brothers that are graduating. So here I am, trying not to cry and get through the day without him here.

See this is the deal, this was my last semester and I was on my internship and some how, I broke my foot. I have been holding up pretty well during these trying months until reality set in and graduation day got closer. I have worked so hard to get to this one point and just so easily it was pushed further away. I don't doubt that this happened to me for a reason and that there will be good out of this situation, but that doesn't stop the pain. And what hurts the worst is how everyone around me brushes it off so easily by saying "Your day is coming" or "Don't worry, things happen for a reason". HELL, I already know that!
I guess I'm the only one who sees how bad this hurts. They don't know my story, my stuggle, my heart or my fears. Whats the use of planning your life when it never comes out the way you planned. Good endings only happen in books and sometimes they aint all that either. I know I sound bitter and hostile but WHO WOULDN'T!!!

I have to give my girl TeEricka a shot-out for hooking my page up. Girl you made this day worth starting. My family is having another cookout today, so I plan on eating my troubles away, getting so full that I can't do nothing but sleep. Hopefully when I wake up "Graduation Day" will be over and I can start all over again waiting for another one.

Big Red (my mama) walking around here with her 'tude on. She gets like that when she cleans. I guess she mad at all the dirt... you never know with her. It's gonna be some gassy people around here cuase she cooked some baked beans. But those beans taste so good, it's worth the gas. Maybe it will keep a couple people out my face today (yelling...I got first dibs on the beans)!
Ya'll be easy until we grace this place again.
One!

I just got a call... Dasi's coming, Dasi's coming.... I guess my day won't be so bad after all. That means I won't be asking for heavy beans either. Maybe next time!!